Last day of 2015- Last Journey

This post is dedicated to my dearest grandma.

It was indeed a roller coaster year for 2015. On the last day of 2015, grandma left us. It was the most devastating news received for the year. My tears can't stop rolling down from the moment I received the whatsapp message from my brother.

Grandma had been in an out of hospital from a frequency of months to weeks. It was until the most recent admission that we learnt her body is failing on her. Over the years she had multiple illnesses-from the most common hyperlipidemia, hypertension, diabetes, electrolye imbalance to complicated diagnosis like myasthenia gravis, falls resulting in hip replacement and the most recent kidney failure. She was left with 10% kidney function and was completely bed-bound. It was heart wrenching to see her suffering in pain with the slightest movement. 

Grandma had been a very strong woman. Despite her failing health, declining physical ability, she always make it a point to turn up for any celebration even though she had to be wheeled (which she hated most). On the recent weddings of my cousins, she insisted to be up on stage during the toasting session which we were very worried and yet touched by her.

She's always the most thoughtful and although with her old age, she still had fantastic memory. She was able to remember the date, time of birth, zodiac, addresses of all her 12 children. She's always up to date on what's happening around in the house. We are a big family and it is difficult for all to meet very often, but grandma will update whoever she met on the latest happening. She even knew the profile of all her grandson/grand daughter-in laws.

No words can describe how upset we are now. All we could do is to tell ourselves grandma is old, she is fortunate to live up to 88 years of life with a large family of children, grand children and great grand children to see her off.
I hope she will be freed from the pain and suffering in her new home now.

The last gift that grandma gave was the angbao for baby's full month and my greatest regret is she never got to see baby.

Now our biggest worry is grandpa. He had lost his lifetime partner and he is all alone now. Gone are the days when they quarrel with each other over the slightest issue because of their hearing impairment. Now there's no one for grandpa to bicker with.
He had been putting up a strong front during the 5 days of funeral but we knew he was secretly tearing. Never will we see this smile on him again.

Gone are those days... Grandma left us on 31/12/2015 at the age of 88 years old. Thank you for all that you have given to us. We will always remember and love you.